I wrote a post yesterday in a Facebook group, and it sorta went gangbusters.
Believe it or not, it was rather controversial!
It got me thinking about how much internal mindset work I’ve had to do over the past two years.
For those of you who don’t know….
In summer 2014, I was married with three kids, a SAHM with my own business making around $1-$3k a month. By November 2014, I was divorced, pregnant, living in a new apartment, without a source of income other than my business. I got a part-time job {because I needed health insurance as a pregnant woman!}, and continued to hustle on the side.
Income from my business? Around $2-3k.
I had a baby in June 2015. I saved up enough to quit my job and take a few weeks maternity leave, and then in September 2015, I had a decision to make…
Should I go back to work, or try to make my business MY bread and butter?
I was afraid. So I took a job.
BUT 6 weeks later, I quit that job.
I forced myself to deal with my fear, a fear that I lived with day in and day out through the wild year of divorce, new job, new baby, and a new relationship with a non-US citizen.
But really? A fear I lived with my WHOLE life.
A fear of lack.
From October 2015 til today, my income has risen steadily.
- $4k month
- $8k month
- $12k month
- $15k month
- $18k month
- $23k month
Do you think the fear disappeared with each rising tick? Nope.
So here’s what I wrote on FB yesterday….
Guess what? If you worry about money now when you’re only bringing in $1-$2k a month, if you think that earning $10-20k a month will solve it, you’re wrong.
The fear of lack has nothing to do with how much you bring in.
NOTHING.
I repeat, NOTHING.
You will worry about the fear of lack, or the bottom falling out, or losing all your wealth no matter what your bottom line is..because the problem doesn’t reside within your budget.
It’s between the ears in your head.
I went from making $2k a month as a side hustle…
To $23k a month.
If you don’t deal with your “lack demons” they will haunt you regardless.
And I’m not saying this as some elitist entrepreneur with no one but myself to worry about.
I found myself divorced, pregnant with a fourth baby (oh my god), and in love with a man who wasn’t even an American citizen.
The pressure was HIGH.
It still is high. My business supports my family of six, plus two in-laws that live with us to provide childcare.
I AM the bread and butter.
Your fear of lack will not go away until you deal with it. MAKING more money does NOT deal with it.
Facing your fears about the fear of lack (which is just an illusion meant to taunt you)…is.
The reaction made me realize, I need to teach on this topic.
I know it like I know Ben & Jerry’s flavors.
I always thought you had to MASTER something 1000% before you could teach it {though the gaggle of online entrepreneurs who do the opposite is astounding}
But I think hearing from someone who’s been there, made some serious progress, but still knows the STING of panic, will actually be more relatable then someone who doesn’t worry about money ever.
This webinar replay and more is available inside the CYLL Network.
xx Julie